Hey everyone hope you've enjoyed the Christmas celebrations! It is actually Boxing Day here (the day after Christmas) but I'm aware that all my readers are overseas and Christmas will just be finishing!
So how is everyone? How did your day go?
For me it was lovely! Unfortuanately though I was rather tired. The week leading upto Christmas was full of work, so Christmas became like my day of rest tehe. Which I reckon is exactly how it should be, dontcha reckon? Especially considering the lead-up is always so hectic! All the gift wrapping, deliveries, shopping, baking etc etc. Why not enjoy the day stressfree. Easy said than done though I suppose. Anyway so the day started out with us all getting up at about 9oclock. Usually I'm an early bird but yeah not this year tehe-I enjoyed my sleep in. I started this tradition about four years ago where I read the Christmas story in the book of Luke first thing in the morning. So that's exactly what I did and I lit a scented candle. (I bought this box of scented candles like ages ago and only ever use it on Christmas day, so the scent always reminds me of Christmas :D ) At about 10 everyone else was up and so we then opened one present. My second oldest brother and his family come over in the afternoon and thats when we do all the gift opening. So the first present I opened were my chocolates. Thats another tradition out family does. We each get like a box of chocolates. Usually scorched almonds or Roses. I know! As if we couldnt get anymore calories in one day! So then after that we mucked round. Then had Christmas dinner (turkey and the works :D) and then my bro came round yay! Time to open pressies! You should have seen our living room! Absolutely full of wrapping paper. Thats what happens when you stuff 11 people in our tiny lounge :p Absolutely love it. Was fantastic seeing my nephews little faces light up at each gift! I should post photos (yes I will do that just not today sorry folks!) Tehe so after that we had pudding yum! Pavalova, eclairs (fyi its summer here..it was HOOOT!), trifle (my fav), and fruit salad :) Dreamy.
Ummm then half my fam disappeard. (My older bros went camping lol). But algood cos my younger bros and I did what we do every year. Yeap we watched the Grinch Who Stole Christmas and had turkey sandwiches :D. Yumo! So that my friends was my CHristma! How was you guys and girls? :)
Anyway my bro wants to use the comp so will write another time! Maybs when I'm on holiday next week Win!.
God bless H x
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
November
Hi
So here I am finally writing a blog :) I'm gonna include pictures too :) Yeap of our "successful" saffron cake. I kid you not it was literally 2square inches! Like actual. Was such a fail. So the photos are actually of another dish.
Blackberry and Apple Pie :)
I would have a step by step photos but I didnt really think much of it at the time. I do apologise. Next time I will. Promise ;)
Right so hasnt this year gone by so quickly! I cannot beleive that Christmas is like a month away. Its crazy! I havnt even began Christmas gift shopping yet! I feel so behind. This holiday season has snuck up on me. Which I think is great!.Not that it snuck up on me but that Christmas is almost here :D How will you people spend your holidays? For most of you the weather will be cold and mayby even a chance of snow? Sounds rather exciting to me. I often wish I would experience a white Christmas.
So whats been happening in my life, I hear you ask. Well my blogger friends. Absolutely nothing. Hopefully I'll have something to write about next month...
Jokes! This month may have been pretty uneventful like in a physical sense. But in reality (yes I say reality because I believe the spiritual realm is way more real than what the physical eye can see), things are going on. This month I've been learning about faith and perseverence. It's a day by day battle. I realise I need to hold on to His promises now more than ever before. I gotta have faith that His timing is so perfect. And sometimes it feels like everything is going to happen right now, and when it doesnt, you feel crushed. You see lately, I had to step out in faith. The Lord instructed me to do something and I thought this would lead to something else that I was hoping for. But alas it didnt. And it really discouraged me. I had to learn to lean on Him and trust in Him even more. Was rather hard, but through His grace and love I've learnt that times of trial are good and are there to strengthen me. I'm reminded of a verse in Hebrews
"My son , do not despise the chastening of the Lord, Nor be discouraged when you are rebuked by Him; For whom the Lord loves He chastens, And scourges every son whom He receives" 12v5-6
and
'Now no chastening seeems to be joyful for the present, but painful; nevertheless, afterward it yeilds the fruits of righteousness to those who have been trained by it' v11
So this month has been great actually :). Think I'll leave it at this. I know I've been really slack with my blogs lately. I guess I just run out of things to talk about.
Hmm. Oh I had to say goodbye to a dear friend this month. We've been friends for a good 8 years and I'm really going to miss her. She's been here like all through my teens til now (though I'm still kinda a teen lol) and it's kinda hard knowing she's' not here yet. So yeah I have been spending most of this month with her. We make cool videos and then laugh at ourselves. One day I may share it ;).
What else? Well I've also been working quite a bit over this last week. Which has been good, but quite hard on my body. Got a bit run down and was sick a wee bit. I'm good now, thank Jesus :).
The break-up of the local youth group is on this weekend. So I think I'll make an appearance. I dont go to youth group anymore you see. Felt the Lord lead me out from it for a season. But yeah cos I was a leader etc, I think it would be nice to wish the young ones safe holidays and like spend some time with them. Havnt seen most of them in quite a few months, so quite miss the contact. But algood :)
So do girls and guys have plans for the holidays? Do share with me if you can. Just leave a wee comment :)
What music have you's been listening to lately? My fav at the moment is the song Holy by Matt Gilman and Cory Asbury. Amazing! Heres a link to the song:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZHxoaq6wBJ8
Anywho, better go ahead and publish this baby :p. Blessings people. Til next time.
H
So here I am finally writing a blog :) I'm gonna include pictures too :) Yeap of our "successful" saffron cake. I kid you not it was literally 2square inches! Like actual. Was such a fail. So the photos are actually of another dish.
Blackberry and Apple Pie :)
I would have a step by step photos but I didnt really think much of it at the time. I do apologise. Next time I will. Promise ;)
Right so hasnt this year gone by so quickly! I cannot beleive that Christmas is like a month away. Its crazy! I havnt even began Christmas gift shopping yet! I feel so behind. This holiday season has snuck up on me. Which I think is great!.Not that it snuck up on me but that Christmas is almost here :D How will you people spend your holidays? For most of you the weather will be cold and mayby even a chance of snow? Sounds rather exciting to me. I often wish I would experience a white Christmas.
So whats been happening in my life, I hear you ask. Well my blogger friends. Absolutely nothing. Hopefully I'll have something to write about next month...
Jokes! This month may have been pretty uneventful like in a physical sense. But in reality (yes I say reality because I believe the spiritual realm is way more real than what the physical eye can see), things are going on. This month I've been learning about faith and perseverence. It's a day by day battle. I realise I need to hold on to His promises now more than ever before. I gotta have faith that His timing is so perfect. And sometimes it feels like everything is going to happen right now, and when it doesnt, you feel crushed. You see lately, I had to step out in faith. The Lord instructed me to do something and I thought this would lead to something else that I was hoping for. But alas it didnt. And it really discouraged me. I had to learn to lean on Him and trust in Him even more. Was rather hard, but through His grace and love I've learnt that times of trial are good and are there to strengthen me. I'm reminded of a verse in Hebrews
"My son , do not despise the chastening of the Lord, Nor be discouraged when you are rebuked by Him; For whom the Lord loves He chastens, And scourges every son whom He receives" 12v5-6
and
'Now no chastening seeems to be joyful for the present, but painful; nevertheless, afterward it yeilds the fruits of righteousness to those who have been trained by it' v11
So this month has been great actually :). Think I'll leave it at this. I know I've been really slack with my blogs lately. I guess I just run out of things to talk about.
Hmm. Oh I had to say goodbye to a dear friend this month. We've been friends for a good 8 years and I'm really going to miss her. She's been here like all through my teens til now (though I'm still kinda a teen lol) and it's kinda hard knowing she's' not here yet. So yeah I have been spending most of this month with her. We make cool videos and then laugh at ourselves. One day I may share it ;).
What else? Well I've also been working quite a bit over this last week. Which has been good, but quite hard on my body. Got a bit run down and was sick a wee bit. I'm good now, thank Jesus :).
The break-up of the local youth group is on this weekend. So I think I'll make an appearance. I dont go to youth group anymore you see. Felt the Lord lead me out from it for a season. But yeah cos I was a leader etc, I think it would be nice to wish the young ones safe holidays and like spend some time with them. Havnt seen most of them in quite a few months, so quite miss the contact. But algood :)
So do girls and guys have plans for the holidays? Do share with me if you can. Just leave a wee comment :)
What music have you's been listening to lately? My fav at the moment is the song Holy by Matt Gilman and Cory Asbury. Amazing! Heres a link to the song:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZHxoaq6wBJ8
Anywho, better go ahead and publish this baby :p. Blessings people. Til next time.
H
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Just another rainy day
Hello Lovelies
How have you been this month? I've been rather fantastic :) Okay I'll admit I'm only saying that because I'm in such a lovely mood atm. I'm currently in our kitchen (I live at home by the way, with my folks :) ), in view of the large window, which shows steady rain falling admist green leaves, listening to my amazing brother playing his guitar. He'd kill me if he knew I was writing about him haha. He's really very talented though; it's not often we get to hear him play. In fact, he only came home this month! We hadnt seen him for like a whole year! So yeah I'm very happy to have my oldest brother home :). Suddenly the kitchen comes alive and evey ingredient stored in our pantry is put to use. He loves to cook you see. And he loves to make exotic dishes. Why today we will attempt a saffron cheesecake. Does that not sound so delightful? :D I'll endeaver to post photos when we do it :D
I love rainy days. Especially in Spring. It's almost as if the rain accentuates the green in the grass and leaves. It's so refreshing. It seems so new. Oh how lovely the natural, yet how better the spiritual rain. How the earth cries for water, yet our souls yearn for His Spirit. Jesus, prepare our hearts, our minds, our souls for your great awakening. For the promise of your great Outpouring. Spiritually speaking we are thirsty. Don't you all see it? We need His revival. We must not give up on it. We must be ready. Whenever it rains, I am reminded of the spiritual rain, the latter rain. I'm reminded of His promise to send it. This is just a simple reminder to not give up guys. To keep on fighting :) He is coming.
This month I have actually been soaking up a lot of teachings. I have been very blessed by the IHOP team. No not International House of Pancakes, but International House of Prayer. I know I've spoken of them before. Atleast I have of Misty Edwards, who is a worship leader at IHOP. They are such a blessing to me. I really am in awe of how they have kept the prayer room going 24 hours a day for over ten years. Isnt that amazing! They are just so cool. Anyway, lately I've been listening to Mike Bickle's teachings, he's the founder of IHOP, and have recieved many confirmations on the things to come. Such as the coming days will be very glorious and very terrible. Glorious for those who are ready and terrible for those who are not. This leads me on to report what the Lord has spoken to me lately. During my devotionals lately He has said that "We need new wineskins". To me this emphasises again that we must get ready. We must renew our minds (easier said than done, I know!), and prepare our temple for the new rain. For the outpouring of His Spirit as prophesied by Joel, and later through Peter on the day of Pentecost. You see, some believe that the day of Pentecost was what the prophet Joel was referring to but as Mike puts it in one of his awesome sermons "The day of Pentecost was only a down payment of a far greater fulfillment of this prophecy in the end times before Jesus’ return." The Day of Pentecost in Peters day was only a taste, if you will, of whats to come. As the Lord has told me and as I have mentioned in previous posts; "We must repent, to be restord;" so that the days for us will be glorious and not terrible. I know its hard. I struggle so much. But Jesus He is there to help us. He is there to encourage us. Just trust in Him. Keep fighting the good fight. :)
Anyway this month has been pretty fabulous. I know the last two paragraphs have been rather er intense, but the message will continue to be written in my blogs. I don't intend to write it but it just seems to come out haha.
My oldest brother Karl has had a birthday this month, as well as my youngest nephew. On the 13th of October Benjamin turned one years old. Isnt that exciting! We had a wee gathering at my brothers house. Ate good food (bbq yay! :) ) and hung out with under five yeard old's. Was bliss :)
Well I should go. I know this isnt very long so I do apologise for that.
Till next time.
H.
(Sorry about my grammar and whatnot btw! Its shocking I know!)
How have you been this month? I've been rather fantastic :) Okay I'll admit I'm only saying that because I'm in such a lovely mood atm. I'm currently in our kitchen (I live at home by the way, with my folks :) ), in view of the large window, which shows steady rain falling admist green leaves, listening to my amazing brother playing his guitar. He'd kill me if he knew I was writing about him haha. He's really very talented though; it's not often we get to hear him play. In fact, he only came home this month! We hadnt seen him for like a whole year! So yeah I'm very happy to have my oldest brother home :). Suddenly the kitchen comes alive and evey ingredient stored in our pantry is put to use. He loves to cook you see. And he loves to make exotic dishes. Why today we will attempt a saffron cheesecake. Does that not sound so delightful? :D I'll endeaver to post photos when we do it :D
I love rainy days. Especially in Spring. It's almost as if the rain accentuates the green in the grass and leaves. It's so refreshing. It seems so new. Oh how lovely the natural, yet how better the spiritual rain. How the earth cries for water, yet our souls yearn for His Spirit. Jesus, prepare our hearts, our minds, our souls for your great awakening. For the promise of your great Outpouring. Spiritually speaking we are thirsty. Don't you all see it? We need His revival. We must not give up on it. We must be ready. Whenever it rains, I am reminded of the spiritual rain, the latter rain. I'm reminded of His promise to send it. This is just a simple reminder to not give up guys. To keep on fighting :) He is coming.
This month I have actually been soaking up a lot of teachings. I have been very blessed by the IHOP team. No not International House of Pancakes, but International House of Prayer. I know I've spoken of them before. Atleast I have of Misty Edwards, who is a worship leader at IHOP. They are such a blessing to me. I really am in awe of how they have kept the prayer room going 24 hours a day for over ten years. Isnt that amazing! They are just so cool. Anyway, lately I've been listening to Mike Bickle's teachings, he's the founder of IHOP, and have recieved many confirmations on the things to come. Such as the coming days will be very glorious and very terrible. Glorious for those who are ready and terrible for those who are not. This leads me on to report what the Lord has spoken to me lately. During my devotionals lately He has said that "We need new wineskins". To me this emphasises again that we must get ready. We must renew our minds (easier said than done, I know!), and prepare our temple for the new rain. For the outpouring of His Spirit as prophesied by Joel, and later through Peter on the day of Pentecost. You see, some believe that the day of Pentecost was what the prophet Joel was referring to but as Mike puts it in one of his awesome sermons "The day of Pentecost was only a down payment of a far greater fulfillment of this prophecy in the end times before Jesus’ return." The Day of Pentecost in Peters day was only a taste, if you will, of whats to come. As the Lord has told me and as I have mentioned in previous posts; "We must repent, to be restord;" so that the days for us will be glorious and not terrible. I know its hard. I struggle so much. But Jesus He is there to help us. He is there to encourage us. Just trust in Him. Keep fighting the good fight. :)
Anyway this month has been pretty fabulous. I know the last two paragraphs have been rather er intense, but the message will continue to be written in my blogs. I don't intend to write it but it just seems to come out haha.
My oldest brother Karl has had a birthday this month, as well as my youngest nephew. On the 13th of October Benjamin turned one years old. Isnt that exciting! We had a wee gathering at my brothers house. Ate good food (bbq yay! :) ) and hung out with under five yeard old's. Was bliss :)
Well I should go. I know this isnt very long so I do apologise for that.
Till next time.
H.
(Sorry about my grammar and whatnot btw! Its shocking I know!)
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
I'm gonna rant...
Hello wonderful bloggers.
Wow that sounded rather positive eh? Okay so like my title post I'm gonna rant. I'm unhappy. Hahaha na I'm actually joking. I'm actually resonably happy. I'm just battling. Life is good...some of the time. It is a daily battle to follow Christ, dontcha think? Like seriously to walk in the Spirit and not in the flesh...it's hard. Each day we have to (and want to most of the time ;) ) choose God's way and not our way. My struggles at the moment...oh I have sooo many! I'm not gonna name them all, because that would be a bit too full on for you lovely readers (well that is if you guys and girls even read this anymore...havnt had comments in a while :( ), but I will talk about a few.
About a month ago (I probabley did blog on this but I cant remember..so sorry for repeating), the Lord gave me a word on being humble and going the extra mile. At first I was like sweet I can do that...and then I came across a few situations that seriously tested me. Two days after my birthday, my friends had planned a surprise birthday party for me...that I actually missed! :( I got so upset and cos I was away (about an hour away from my town), I lets say reacted rather harshly. I was upset cos I was away and I was missing out on my own party. And my fam didnt seem to care, like they were like "You'll get there when you get there" kinda, "The party will re-start when you arrive" and they just wernt rushing home, like I was hoping them too. And yeah I was just a mess in my emotions! And I said something which I regret. And I know what your thinking, 'Hannah calm down, everyone blows up every now and then" etc. But no. I think I was more upset because I was upset. Because what was coming out of me, was indeed what was in me. You see situations like that, bring out what is really in us. My reactions didnt show um Christ-like qualities if you will. It showed stubborness, selfishness, pride etc. It was ugly! :( and that annoyed me. LIke I know we're all gonna slip up but yeah I guess to be honest, I'd thought I'd past those particular struggles...yeah its hard. But I'm gonna keep fighting on cos I love God, and He loves me and He wants me and I want HIm.
I have to keep striving to be more like Him. Need to get stuck into Word more and more to renew my mind! ahhh lol. Right anyway thats kinda my rant to be honest/. THought it'd be much longer but yeah.
Soooo...now its SPRING! As in all the blossoms are out and we've had crazy winds etc!
Oh just randomly have you American folk heard about the earthquakes we've had here in NZ. Been pretty crazy! Like there's still earthquakes happening. And then mums been hearing from the Lord that it isnt over and we can expect to see more earthquakes around the world, in countrys such as Canada, Italy, New York and Philippins. SO please pray for these countries that God will have mercy and that people will begin to repent. Sigh. We cant give up peeps. We gotta keep perservering for Jesus. We gotta keep fighting.
Peace. :)
Wow that sounded rather positive eh? Okay so like my title post I'm gonna rant. I'm unhappy. Hahaha na I'm actually joking. I'm actually resonably happy. I'm just battling. Life is good...some of the time. It is a daily battle to follow Christ, dontcha think? Like seriously to walk in the Spirit and not in the flesh...it's hard. Each day we have to (and want to most of the time ;) ) choose God's way and not our way. My struggles at the moment...oh I have sooo many! I'm not gonna name them all, because that would be a bit too full on for you lovely readers (well that is if you guys and girls even read this anymore...havnt had comments in a while :( ), but I will talk about a few.
About a month ago (I probabley did blog on this but I cant remember..so sorry for repeating), the Lord gave me a word on being humble and going the extra mile. At first I was like sweet I can do that...and then I came across a few situations that seriously tested me. Two days after my birthday, my friends had planned a surprise birthday party for me...that I actually missed! :( I got so upset and cos I was away (about an hour away from my town), I lets say reacted rather harshly. I was upset cos I was away and I was missing out on my own party. And my fam didnt seem to care, like they were like "You'll get there when you get there" kinda, "The party will re-start when you arrive" and they just wernt rushing home, like I was hoping them too. And yeah I was just a mess in my emotions! And I said something which I regret. And I know what your thinking, 'Hannah calm down, everyone blows up every now and then" etc. But no. I think I was more upset because I was upset. Because what was coming out of me, was indeed what was in me. You see situations like that, bring out what is really in us. My reactions didnt show um Christ-like qualities if you will. It showed stubborness, selfishness, pride etc. It was ugly! :( and that annoyed me. LIke I know we're all gonna slip up but yeah I guess to be honest, I'd thought I'd past those particular struggles...yeah its hard. But I'm gonna keep fighting on cos I love God, and He loves me and He wants me and I want HIm.
I have to keep striving to be more like Him. Need to get stuck into Word more and more to renew my mind! ahhh lol. Right anyway thats kinda my rant to be honest/. THought it'd be much longer but yeah.
Soooo...now its SPRING! As in all the blossoms are out and we've had crazy winds etc!
Oh just randomly have you American folk heard about the earthquakes we've had here in NZ. Been pretty crazy! Like there's still earthquakes happening. And then mums been hearing from the Lord that it isnt over and we can expect to see more earthquakes around the world, in countrys such as Canada, Italy, New York and Philippins. SO please pray for these countries that God will have mercy and that people will begin to repent. Sigh. We cant give up peeps. We gotta keep perservering for Jesus. We gotta keep fighting.
Peace. :)
Friday, September 17, 2010
Officially 19
Hey folks!
Yeap I'm finally nineteen. (Okay so 'finally' isn't really the right word, it's not like I've been waiting to turn 19 haha.) Yeah not sure what else to say to be honest. Hope you guys are algood :) Think I'll just leave it at this as I havnt got very much to say..and I have like 3hours left of ma birthday so I'm gonna celebrate lol. Not sure what I'll do, mayby sleep haha.
Yeap I'm finally nineteen. (Okay so 'finally' isn't really the right word, it's not like I've been waiting to turn 19 haha.) Yeah not sure what else to say to be honest. Hope you guys are algood :) Think I'll just leave it at this as I havnt got very much to say..and I have like 3hours left of ma birthday so I'm gonna celebrate lol. Not sure what I'll do, mayby sleep haha.
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
August baby..
Haha dont ask why I put baby there...just felt like it :p.
So how are you lovely bloggers!? So today is the 25th of August! And that means by the grace of God, I've been saved for officially 4 years. How totally awesome is that! :) Praise Jesus, for keeping me this long. I honestly don't think I deserve it. God is sooo good to me! :) It overwhelms me sometimes. Sigh what a beautiful Savior we have :).
OKay so over the weekend, I went to a missions camp. This was my fifth year at this camp. (It was the camp I was born again at :) ). God was/is so good. ON the first night during worship, one the speakers felt to say, that if anyone was inspired (as in by Holy Spirit) to like prophesy etc, they should come up. And at this point I was having a wee bit of a battle haha. You see last week during my devotional, the Lord gave me a word and it was "We must repent, to be restored". (btw my lovely blog readers please take heed to this word, we must all get ready for Him. He wants a holy, pure bride people. I love you guys and so I say this in love, as much as I can through a post, please get right before your Savior. He loves you so much. If the word makes no sence to you, then please pray on it. Ask Him about it :) ) Anyway I was thinking to myself, "Do I go up Lord, and tell these people, your word?" And while I was debating this, a man called Ben (I know him from previous camps and whatnot), came upto me and said he had a word for me. This is the jist of it: "I just saw you on the top of a mountain and you were sounding a trumpet. You have a message for the people and its to show what they need to do next. You have a zeal and you will lead them." Praise Jesus! He is so good (And this kinda irrelevant but then honestly like two minutes later, another guy came upto me and said "I just have a word for you. 'You are called to the nations'." Again thankyou Lord!) So then I knew that I had to get up and deliver the message, and by Gods grace, I did it. Cos yeah I'm not a publice speaker aye. Well Gods changing me haha. He is good. That whole weekend, people got word after word for me. God is soooo awesome! Really like I dont ask for it ya know, He just gives if to me. Brings me to tears. Sigh He is good.
I also found it encouraging how most of the sermons were about the coming revival. That was so encouraging. I met so many people who are looking for it too, ya know. Like where i'm at, as in where i live, and who I'm surrounded by, have lost hope in revival. And flip, it frustrates me sometimes, (I know, God so needs to help me with that amongst like soooo many other things! haha) But yeah I must persevere, I will not give up! Jesus. Just gotta keep my eyes on Jesus. I want Him. I want a heart like David and like Mary of Bethany. I want my eyes to forever be on Him. Oh precious Jesus, lead me Lord into your arms! Please pray for me fellow bloggers!
So what else is new? Um well my role at work has changed ever so slightly. Instead of just making sandwiches (which personally I didnt mind too much, kinda got into a routine), I'm now moved onto the baking part. So now I'm doing all the breads, quiches, scones, cakes and well more interesting things. So I'm pretty stoked about it to be honest. While I'm waiting for revival, I may as well learn some baking haha. So yeah. :)
What else? I'm not sure what else to put here. Think I'll leave it at this. :)
Strive to enter the narrow gate people :) Run to the arms of Jesus :)
So how are you lovely bloggers!? So today is the 25th of August! And that means by the grace of God, I've been saved for officially 4 years. How totally awesome is that! :) Praise Jesus, for keeping me this long. I honestly don't think I deserve it. God is sooo good to me! :) It overwhelms me sometimes. Sigh what a beautiful Savior we have :).
OKay so over the weekend, I went to a missions camp. This was my fifth year at this camp. (It was the camp I was born again at :) ). God was/is so good. ON the first night during worship, one the speakers felt to say, that if anyone was inspired (as in by Holy Spirit) to like prophesy etc, they should come up. And at this point I was having a wee bit of a battle haha. You see last week during my devotional, the Lord gave me a word and it was "We must repent, to be restored". (btw my lovely blog readers please take heed to this word, we must all get ready for Him. He wants a holy, pure bride people. I love you guys and so I say this in love, as much as I can through a post, please get right before your Savior. He loves you so much. If the word makes no sence to you, then please pray on it. Ask Him about it :) ) Anyway I was thinking to myself, "Do I go up Lord, and tell these people, your word?" And while I was debating this, a man called Ben (I know him from previous camps and whatnot), came upto me and said he had a word for me. This is the jist of it: "I just saw you on the top of a mountain and you were sounding a trumpet. You have a message for the people and its to show what they need to do next. You have a zeal and you will lead them." Praise Jesus! He is so good (And this kinda irrelevant but then honestly like two minutes later, another guy came upto me and said "I just have a word for you. 'You are called to the nations'." Again thankyou Lord!) So then I knew that I had to get up and deliver the message, and by Gods grace, I did it. Cos yeah I'm not a publice speaker aye. Well Gods changing me haha. He is good. That whole weekend, people got word after word for me. God is soooo awesome! Really like I dont ask for it ya know, He just gives if to me. Brings me to tears. Sigh He is good.
I also found it encouraging how most of the sermons were about the coming revival. That was so encouraging. I met so many people who are looking for it too, ya know. Like where i'm at, as in where i live, and who I'm surrounded by, have lost hope in revival. And flip, it frustrates me sometimes, (I know, God so needs to help me with that amongst like soooo many other things! haha) But yeah I must persevere, I will not give up! Jesus. Just gotta keep my eyes on Jesus. I want Him. I want a heart like David and like Mary of Bethany. I want my eyes to forever be on Him. Oh precious Jesus, lead me Lord into your arms! Please pray for me fellow bloggers!
So what else is new? Um well my role at work has changed ever so slightly. Instead of just making sandwiches (which personally I didnt mind too much, kinda got into a routine), I'm now moved onto the baking part. So now I'm doing all the breads, quiches, scones, cakes and well more interesting things. So I'm pretty stoked about it to be honest. While I'm waiting for revival, I may as well learn some baking haha. So yeah. :)
What else? I'm not sure what else to put here. Think I'll leave it at this. :)
Strive to enter the narrow gate people :) Run to the arms of Jesus :)
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
There endeth July
Greetings to you beautiful bloggers! I hope you've all had a wonderful month :)
So I just had a quick look-see at my previous blog and am reminded of a familiar chapter in Ecclesiates.
"To everything there is a season...A time to kill; And a time to heal; A time to break down and a time to build up. (Ecclesiates3v3).
Quite honestly, I feel that while writing my last blog, I was going through a 'break down' if you will. Okay it wasn't as bad as that sounds. I just think that...well to everything there is a season. And right now I'm going through a building up- praise Jesus! I mean lately (I'm talking like the last few weeks), I just have a thirsting for the Word, I want to spend more time with Jesus. Quite honestly, I feel as if I was just saved. :D
I want to be ready for his visitation, for His coming. I know in my spirit we are running out of time. My mum actually got a word recently that I know I should share and it is this "Tell my sons (thats means daughters too :) ) to get ready." Fellow bloggers , and whoever else reads this, please know that the biggest revival that this world has ever seen and will ever see, is just around the corner. And following this, will be the harvest and then the return of our sweet Savior. I'm also reminded of a word the Lord gave me a few years ago. "Tell them I'm coming very soon". Unfortunately not one of us knows the day or hour, but all we are to do is quite simple- Get ready!! Guys, (I'm referring to all by the way, the word "guys" in NZ is like slang for 'people' :) ), we must all repent. We must all get right before our God, before our King. Please people, dont take this lightly. If you know (in fact you will know) your not right before God, then do something about it. Dont wait for a camp, or for some international speaker on revival to visit your local town or city, or even a spiritual experience; please begin now to 'rend your hearts and not your garments' (Joel 2v13). Run into the arms of Jesus 'for He is is gracious and merciful, slow to anger, and of great kindness..' (v13 cont.). Now is the time guys. Oh how glorious the days :).
To be honest, I didnt think I was even going to write about all this. I was actually going to write on 'renewing the mind' (something I've learnt quite a bit about recently), but hey I just write as God leads :). He is so good. Lately actually, I've been memorising useful verses from the Bible, and praise God, it's been so wonderful to be honest. I've quite enjoyed it. I have even got my boss (who's not even a Christian) to help me. My mum helps too, but yeah with him being a born and bred Kiwi, he helps with pronounciation for some words :)
So yeah life is good atm. Don't get me wrong, I'm still battling. But what I'm learning, is to expect failure. As in, to expect to muck up. You see, I've always been one of those people, that will idk decide on a change if you will (like no more tv for example) but yeah sometimes you can get trapped into watching something. But instead of just giving up, I'm gonna let Jesus pick me back up and try again :)
Actually reminds me of a funny incident, last night our television broke. Isn't that funny?! A year or so back God spoke to us about 'removing our idols' and quite frankly, the television was an idol in our household. (oh btw only like my parents and I are saved in my household, just so you know. Dont worry though Gods got His hands on my bros :p). It's only been like 24hours but they're definately beginning to notice the effects. But hey, if your not gonna listen to Him, then he'll do stuff like let your tv break :p tehe. Oh just so you know, I'm not completly opposed to watching tv. I just see it as a time waster, sometimes. And annoys me how it can actually run a household :( Oh and the content isnt exactly godley these days too unfortunately :( But yeah like I do watch movies (quick thankyou to Ashley Weis for your blogs as they have encouraged me quite a bit lately, especially round this topic of movies ect:) ) and sports sometimes :)Like you should check out this website called Pluggedinonline.com for movie reviews. They'll tell you whats really in the films, from a good Christian perspective.
To be honest, I am surprised that it is 5pm and I'm writing a blog. I never write blogs at this time. It's like 8 hours too early :P tehe.
Oh I just made pumpkin soup for like the first time ever. I'm quite estatic to be honest. I love pumpkin soup! So yay ! :)
Should probably leave this blog as is now. I'm really just babbling :).
Take care lovelies. Stay in Jesus :)
So I just had a quick look-see at my previous blog and am reminded of a familiar chapter in Ecclesiates.
"To everything there is a season...A time to kill; And a time to heal; A time to break down and a time to build up. (Ecclesiates3v3).
Quite honestly, I feel that while writing my last blog, I was going through a 'break down' if you will. Okay it wasn't as bad as that sounds. I just think that...well to everything there is a season. And right now I'm going through a building up- praise Jesus! I mean lately (I'm talking like the last few weeks), I just have a thirsting for the Word, I want to spend more time with Jesus. Quite honestly, I feel as if I was just saved. :D
I want to be ready for his visitation, for His coming. I know in my spirit we are running out of time. My mum actually got a word recently that I know I should share and it is this "Tell my sons (thats means daughters too :) ) to get ready." Fellow bloggers , and whoever else reads this, please know that the biggest revival that this world has ever seen and will ever see, is just around the corner. And following this, will be the harvest and then the return of our sweet Savior. I'm also reminded of a word the Lord gave me a few years ago. "Tell them I'm coming very soon". Unfortunately not one of us knows the day or hour, but all we are to do is quite simple- Get ready!! Guys, (I'm referring to all by the way, the word "guys" in NZ is like slang for 'people' :) ), we must all repent. We must all get right before our God, before our King. Please people, dont take this lightly. If you know (in fact you will know) your not right before God, then do something about it. Dont wait for a camp, or for some international speaker on revival to visit your local town or city, or even a spiritual experience; please begin now to 'rend your hearts and not your garments' (Joel 2v13). Run into the arms of Jesus 'for He is is gracious and merciful, slow to anger, and of great kindness..' (v13 cont.). Now is the time guys. Oh how glorious the days :).
To be honest, I didnt think I was even going to write about all this. I was actually going to write on 'renewing the mind' (something I've learnt quite a bit about recently), but hey I just write as God leads :). He is so good. Lately actually, I've been memorising useful verses from the Bible, and praise God, it's been so wonderful to be honest. I've quite enjoyed it. I have even got my boss (who's not even a Christian) to help me. My mum helps too, but yeah with him being a born and bred Kiwi, he helps with pronounciation for some words :)
So yeah life is good atm. Don't get me wrong, I'm still battling. But what I'm learning, is to expect failure. As in, to expect to muck up. You see, I've always been one of those people, that will idk decide on a change if you will (like no more tv for example) but yeah sometimes you can get trapped into watching something. But instead of just giving up, I'm gonna let Jesus pick me back up and try again :)
Actually reminds me of a funny incident, last night our television broke. Isn't that funny?! A year or so back God spoke to us about 'removing our idols' and quite frankly, the television was an idol in our household. (oh btw only like my parents and I are saved in my household, just so you know. Dont worry though Gods got His hands on my bros :p). It's only been like 24hours but they're definately beginning to notice the effects. But hey, if your not gonna listen to Him, then he'll do stuff like let your tv break :p tehe. Oh just so you know, I'm not completly opposed to watching tv. I just see it as a time waster, sometimes. And annoys me how it can actually run a household :( Oh and the content isnt exactly godley these days too unfortunately :( But yeah like I do watch movies (quick thankyou to Ashley Weis for your blogs as they have encouraged me quite a bit lately, especially round this topic of movies ect:) ) and sports sometimes :)Like you should check out this website called Pluggedinonline.com for movie reviews. They'll tell you whats really in the films, from a good Christian perspective.
To be honest, I am surprised that it is 5pm and I'm writing a blog. I never write blogs at this time. It's like 8 hours too early :P tehe.
Oh I just made pumpkin soup for like the first time ever. I'm quite estatic to be honest. I love pumpkin soup! So yay ! :)
Should probably leave this blog as is now. I'm really just babbling :).
Take care lovelies. Stay in Jesus :)
Monday, July 5, 2010
June/July
Hey Folks
I have to apologise as I'm late with the June blog and have therefore joined June and July.
Wow so whats been happening wiht me??? Hmm well I'm officially back to work now. It's pretty sweet. I quite missed working at the old peoples to be honest. They're all just so sweet in their quirkey,old way lol. One lady who has just come to live a Moreh (name of Old Peoples HOme) as she recovers from an accident, is very really quite interesting. You see I met her about a week before I started back, when i was with a friend (he knows her from way back) and so then since then she keeps like talking to me all the time, telling me stories etc lol Then yesterday, she was like "I have something for you" and then handed me an orange and a Moro (chocolate) bar. Was sooo cute :D
So Fifa World Cup...what have you guys all thought of it? I'm was super exctied aye Ive watched quite a few games aye. Was mega cool being off work as I could get up early for the good games without worrying, ya know :) (Games here in NZ were screening at 11.30 pm, 2am and 6.30am) So yeah the reason i put "was" rather than "is" super excited, is because unfortunately for me, I am working while the finals are on! Yeap sooo sad! But I have a plan...I'm going to ask if the staff would kindly put the radio volume down(so I do not hear any scores) and then when i head home I'll watch the replay. :) Lets hope it works aye. I mean this only happens every four years! SO btw who do you's think will win? :) I'm going for Spain, but I don't mind either way :)Be cool to hear what you guys think :)
Um what else? So to be honest it's been hard lately. Like life in general. I'm in a constant battle with my emotions (though in saying that when are we not?). I don't know whats wrong with me. I just feel like spirtually, I'm going no where. Sigh I dont know whats happening. I'm just I don't know, going through a bit of strife aye
But yeah I'll be okay. I hope.
Um think I'll let this be a short blog. Have a good month :)
I have to apologise as I'm late with the June blog and have therefore joined June and July.
Wow so whats been happening wiht me??? Hmm well I'm officially back to work now. It's pretty sweet. I quite missed working at the old peoples to be honest. They're all just so sweet in their quirkey,old way lol. One lady who has just come to live a Moreh (name of Old Peoples HOme) as she recovers from an accident, is very really quite interesting. You see I met her about a week before I started back, when i was with a friend (he knows her from way back) and so then since then she keeps like talking to me all the time, telling me stories etc lol Then yesterday, she was like "I have something for you" and then handed me an orange and a Moro (chocolate) bar. Was sooo cute :D
So Fifa World Cup...what have you guys all thought of it? I'm was super exctied aye Ive watched quite a few games aye. Was mega cool being off work as I could get up early for the good games without worrying, ya know :) (Games here in NZ were screening at 11.30 pm, 2am and 6.30am) So yeah the reason i put "was" rather than "is" super excited, is because unfortunately for me, I am working while the finals are on! Yeap sooo sad! But I have a plan...I'm going to ask if the staff would kindly put the radio volume down(so I do not hear any scores) and then when i head home I'll watch the replay. :) Lets hope it works aye. I mean this only happens every four years! SO btw who do you's think will win? :) I'm going for Spain, but I don't mind either way :)Be cool to hear what you guys think :)
Um what else? So to be honest it's been hard lately. Like life in general. I'm in a constant battle with my emotions (though in saying that when are we not?). I don't know whats wrong with me. I just feel like spirtually, I'm going no where. Sigh I dont know whats happening. I'm just I don't know, going through a bit of strife aye
But yeah I'll be okay. I hope.
Um think I'll let this be a short blog. Have a good month :)
Monday, May 24, 2010
Magnificent May
Holla!
So here i am doing my monthly update! Outside it is pouring down with rain :) and I quite like it. So its been an interesting month. Quite an enjoyable one to be honest :)
So at the moment I am officially a bum (meaning Im doin nothing lol). No I didnt get fired..not yet anyway just kidding! You see a few weeks ago I went to stay at my bros house, cos he needed a hand, as my sister-in-law went to hospital (thank Jesus she's algood now) and on the first night i was there, I had an accident. You see I was just about ready to cut the pumpkins and so i asked my older bro for a sharp knife. Instead he took over (obviously thought his little sister couldnt do it :p) and then once pumpkin was all chopped up, he pretented to cut me with the knife. But instead of it stopping just before getting my hand, it carried on and left a lovely effect on my right index finger. My bro felt soooo bad aye! There was blood everywhere. Dont worry though it not too major. It did go partway through a tendon though and so i not able able to work for three weeks...hense me mentioning that I'm now a bum lol I am thankfully covered by ACC (its like a benefit kinda thing) so yeah its been pretty sweet to be honest :)
I never really know what to put in this blogs aye. To me they dont seem at all very interesting. hmmmm
Well last month I did say I would put pics of lovely random things so I will endeaver to do that. I also said I wasnt going to complain, so I'm not going to hehe
Ummmmm God is good :) He really is. It amazes me like how He puts up with me.(so this is kinda half a complaint lol) Like I'm just so like a sea thats been tossed to and fro, ya know, like I very much dislike how one day everythings great and then the next....well not so lovely. I guess I've just got to learn that us humans are prone to changing; but its okay as long as we always look to the one who never changes. God is the same yesterday, today and forever. He's forver merciful, yet just. Forever loving, forever wanting His children in His arms.
It's funny the other day I mentioned to my mum that my prayer of late is to just fully understand what Jesus went through on the cross. Like my desire is to know, to comprehend what He did for us, because of His great love for us. Mum wasnt too pleased. She thought that I wanted to suffer like He did. But I didnt mean that...well not really should i say...like it'd be awesome to suffer for Christ... but like I just want to better understand what Jesus had to go through, willingly, just for us...just for me :,( Does that make sense fellow bloggers? :) I wish to just know. :)
How great is our God, sing with me , How great is our God! How great, How great is our God! That is the chorus from a song by Chris Tomlin. One of my favourite songs in fact :) I put that here cos I just want to encourage you to find a place of solitude so you can soak in the great presence of God! Girls and guys , time with God is so sooo important. I know it can be hard sometimes. But dont give up, or give in should i say. Sometimes you wont feel like praying, or worshipping or getting into His Word but god never said it was gonna be easy. You may have to deny yourself, deny your feelings, and take up your cross and follow Him. Be encouraged dear friends. Jesus is there, He never left, He's there with open arms :)
Right here are some pictures :)Have a great start to June friends.
P.S I think this song may have influenced me a wee bit in my prayer life.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f2ZCIp0HiRo
Pss Im craving a coffee right now :) and these are indeed just random pics from my folder and from google images :) So atm looking at photos a guinea pigs on google (i used to have pet guinea pigs when i was a child) and am disgusted at the amount of pics showing cooked guinea pigs.....ughhhhhhh :( So sad!
Monday, April 26, 2010
April
Wow! this month has gone by soo quickly! I mean flip Mays just round the corner...then June! and then it'd be like half-way through 2010 already (btw do you peeps call it 'twenty ten' or "two thousand and ten"? Personally i go with the latter cos 'twenty ten's just weird lol) Anyway so at the beginning of the month it was easter and down my end it was amazing cos I attended Easter Camp woot woot!! (how'd you guys easter go? :) )
Anyway i really had a great time!! and thats pretty much what this post is gonna be about :). So yeah there were 46 of us Fairlie folk (which is huge for us!) that attending! It was a mixture of non-believers and believers that went and praise Jesus they all saw or felt His presense during it.. :D
Um not sure what i was gonna say now......Um....... Here its raining btw (just thought id throw that in lol hows the weather in the US?? (cos you guys are all from there) Sigh you'll be in Spring now..talk about bliss! :)
Hmm think I'll just talk about the last night of camp cos thats when i felt it was the best!!!!! So at the Big Top (which was the huge marquee that we went for the meetings-held in like 4000 peeps!) we were worshipping and the presense of God began to fall and i just couldnt stop shaking and it just didnt want to stop! it was wonderful :) but at the same time i was like God i think you can stop now lol its getting too much and im not really concentrating on the preacher...but it didnt until near the end, and then we had more worship and flip God just shook up our youth group. Peeps had been affected by the message (i wish i could remember it lol) and so those who responded were kindly asked to stand so then us leaders could go round and pray for them. And flip it was amzing. Like i was super stoked cos we'd pray for someone and like not really expecting anything to happen really, but then afterward they would be crying and i know tears arnt anything too major but it just shows how God can move. :)
Then things went awesome to awesomer lol You see after that i began to um how you say..have the "Holy Ghost" laughter and then like randomly (or God inspired should i say) this girl comes upto me and says "God just wanted me to tell you that He really loves you. He really loves you" and she just kept repeating this and it was pretty super! And then like i remember falling over and then i opened my eyes and saw a friend laughing at me/with me lol. What happened next was simply amazing and something that ive never had or experienced before. You see we ended up laughing heaps for a good 15mins and then i just felt like running and so i told me friend this and he's like "k lets run" and so we just bolted out the door and it was like the fastest run ive even been on (go Holy Spirit eh!) and then we just stopped and he led me back to the Big Top where i just couldnt stop shouting in tongues aye and the he began to shout too. I never heard anyone pray like that before and i later learned that he was interpreting my tongue! It was sooo amazing!! :D God is sooo good! Like he actual has the gift of interpreting tongues, its amazing!! But it wasnt over just yet!:D When we got to the marquee (not sure of spelling-like big circus tent lol) and i like began to prophesy (btw i didnt know this at the time, it was later when i recieved some er spiritual backlash that i learned this) and me and the friend were just working hand in hand, getting like er words for peeps and also just proclaiming the goodness and love of God, especially the love he had for particular people in our youth too :D amazing! So many others experienced the love and joy of Jesus too, like a dear friend of mine who was dancing in the Holy Spirit and a few others experienced freedom through deliverance etc. Was such an epic night! I loved it!
Unfortunately some others didnt enjoy it and a few leaders unfortunately didnt think it was a move of God. This has actually made it quite hard for me, as how can i serve in this youth group when there is disunity among the group. Sigh or should i even be in this youth group was a question i was pondering a few weeks ago. I eventually prayed and consulted my mum who said that this is good training ground for me, and she had a word from the Lord that "this youth group is only temporary" so thank Jesus! :)
So yeah it not all bad. We had a leaders meeting the other evening and thanks to God we are gonna just have a hard out bible study at youth group, like cos we were previously going to have it seperate which a few of us disagreed on...but yeah enough about being negative. I'm over it now. Well trying. God is in control...oh how my sprit yearns for revival!! How we need it! Please people keep praying. Keep at it. Things are hard atm, but hold onto the hope that Christians...or should i say Jesus followers :) are gonna rise up. WE gonna impact this world. We're gonna leave this place on a high note! Just keep striving for the narrow path. Hold onto your standards. Sure the world and even Christians are telling you not to be so extreme...but dont give in! Flip God is sooo much more than pleasing others!!!
Flip i need prayer ! I hope everyone is well. i will put pictures in my next post. Something random and nice :) take care folk.
Anyway i really had a great time!! and thats pretty much what this post is gonna be about :). So yeah there were 46 of us Fairlie folk (which is huge for us!) that attending! It was a mixture of non-believers and believers that went and praise Jesus they all saw or felt His presense during it.. :D
Um not sure what i was gonna say now......Um....... Here its raining btw (just thought id throw that in lol hows the weather in the US?? (cos you guys are all from there) Sigh you'll be in Spring now..talk about bliss! :)
Hmm think I'll just talk about the last night of camp cos thats when i felt it was the best!!!!! So at the Big Top (which was the huge marquee that we went for the meetings-held in like 4000 peeps!) we were worshipping and the presense of God began to fall and i just couldnt stop shaking and it just didnt want to stop! it was wonderful :) but at the same time i was like God i think you can stop now lol its getting too much and im not really concentrating on the preacher...but it didnt until near the end, and then we had more worship and flip God just shook up our youth group. Peeps had been affected by the message (i wish i could remember it lol) and so those who responded were kindly asked to stand so then us leaders could go round and pray for them. And flip it was amzing. Like i was super stoked cos we'd pray for someone and like not really expecting anything to happen really, but then afterward they would be crying and i know tears arnt anything too major but it just shows how God can move. :)
Then things went awesome to awesomer lol You see after that i began to um how you say..have the "Holy Ghost" laughter and then like randomly (or God inspired should i say) this girl comes upto me and says "God just wanted me to tell you that He really loves you. He really loves you" and she just kept repeating this and it was pretty super! And then like i remember falling over and then i opened my eyes and saw a friend laughing at me/with me lol. What happened next was simply amazing and something that ive never had or experienced before. You see we ended up laughing heaps for a good 15mins and then i just felt like running and so i told me friend this and he's like "k lets run" and so we just bolted out the door and it was like the fastest run ive even been on (go Holy Spirit eh!) and then we just stopped and he led me back to the Big Top where i just couldnt stop shouting in tongues aye and the he began to shout too. I never heard anyone pray like that before and i later learned that he was interpreting my tongue! It was sooo amazing!! :D God is sooo good! Like he actual has the gift of interpreting tongues, its amazing!! But it wasnt over just yet!:D When we got to the marquee (not sure of spelling-like big circus tent lol) and i like began to prophesy (btw i didnt know this at the time, it was later when i recieved some er spiritual backlash that i learned this) and me and the friend were just working hand in hand, getting like er words for peeps and also just proclaiming the goodness and love of God, especially the love he had for particular people in our youth too :D amazing! So many others experienced the love and joy of Jesus too, like a dear friend of mine who was dancing in the Holy Spirit and a few others experienced freedom through deliverance etc. Was such an epic night! I loved it!
Unfortunately some others didnt enjoy it and a few leaders unfortunately didnt think it was a move of God. This has actually made it quite hard for me, as how can i serve in this youth group when there is disunity among the group. Sigh or should i even be in this youth group was a question i was pondering a few weeks ago. I eventually prayed and consulted my mum who said that this is good training ground for me, and she had a word from the Lord that "this youth group is only temporary" so thank Jesus! :)
So yeah it not all bad. We had a leaders meeting the other evening and thanks to God we are gonna just have a hard out bible study at youth group, like cos we were previously going to have it seperate which a few of us disagreed on...but yeah enough about being negative. I'm over it now. Well trying. God is in control...oh how my sprit yearns for revival!! How we need it! Please people keep praying. Keep at it. Things are hard atm, but hold onto the hope that Christians...or should i say Jesus followers :) are gonna rise up. WE gonna impact this world. We're gonna leave this place on a high note! Just keep striving for the narrow path. Hold onto your standards. Sure the world and even Christians are telling you not to be so extreme...but dont give in! Flip God is sooo much more than pleasing others!!!
Flip i need prayer ! I hope everyone is well. i will put pictures in my next post. Something random and nice :) take care folk.
Thursday, March 18, 2010
March
Figured that mayby if I simply put a month as my title then ill def update like every month. I know its not as often as i would like but hey, i am busy and i need to be realistic! (hmm perhaps i should have made it my goals to write on this..ah well).
So lately things have been ultra busy! I'm working three jobs, (not as bad as it sounds haha) and leading youth group (which i know I've mentioned!) and well those things are pretty much taking up all my time! SO here i am at 1.30am writing on my blog.
To be honest I'm not sure what I'll write. Usually my blogs are rather negative, and I dont particuarly want to rant on about something in my life right now. Im in a rather positvie mood.
Autumn
Yes I'm writing about the weather er season but same thing..kinda. Ya know how when things are real like going nowhere in a convo, and so either party brings up that weather? Yes I'm doing just that right now tehe. Except two things, this isnt a conversation so it cant like not go anyway (excuse all my like puncutaion etc btw) and secondly, I talk the weather cos i like it tehe. I love warm windy days, pounding rain on the rooftop days, and then those days when the sun is just peeking through the clouds, wanting to surprise you with it's wonderful warmth, but afraid of all the grey, angry clouds surrounding it :D Yes the weather of autumn (or fall for most of yous :p). Bliss. Even when the leaves die, I get excited! And that sounded weird but i dont care atm.
hmm tired will fin this tomorrow or saturday :)
So I'm back and its Saturday by the way :) Had such a busy day. Last night I recieved a phonecall from my boss asking me to work this morning. So i was up at 6 and when I finished, I then went to do some fundraising by stacking wood for a local farmer. There was soo much! ah well it's all for a good cause! :)
Now where was I? Ah yes, so am still loving the weather we're having at the mo.Its soo warm and here we call it like an Indian summer, cos its supposed to get soo much cooler, but surprisingly its still rather warm :)
Right im just gonna write 5 things to be thankful for (Ashley you've inspired me by your Thankful thursdays )
So heres mine
1. This is gonna sound kinda lame, but Im thankful for the internet. It's how I keeps in touch with friends, meet new people and fellowship with other believers :)
2. I'm thankful for my family. I mean sure they get on my nerves on more than one occasion, but heck they've always been there for me and well I know they're never let me down. I really ought to show them more, how much i appreciate their patience especially, with me.
3. I'm thankful for where I live. I mean its a new country. It doesnt have like dangerous predetors and heck spiders here are like harmless (except for the white-bait ;) (inside joke btw) spider) but aside from that, New Zealand is a beautiful and pretty safe country. Thankyou Lord!
4.I'm thankful for food. Its great! lol
5.Oh heck my friends! I'm indeed thankful for their loving natures, and their caring souls. I can say the stupedest thing and it doesnt matter. They get me (most of the time haha)I just wish my close ones, lived closer to me (lol bad er grammer), cos i dont get to see them much-hense me living internet lol.
well thats my list. heck ive been slack lately eh
hope all is well people!
till next time, sorry for annoying yous with my bad spelling and punctuation!
God bless
So lately things have been ultra busy! I'm working three jobs, (not as bad as it sounds haha) and leading youth group (which i know I've mentioned!) and well those things are pretty much taking up all my time! SO here i am at 1.30am writing on my blog.
To be honest I'm not sure what I'll write. Usually my blogs are rather negative, and I dont particuarly want to rant on about something in my life right now. Im in a rather positvie mood.
Autumn
Yes I'm writing about the weather er season but same thing..kinda. Ya know how when things are real like going nowhere in a convo, and so either party brings up that weather? Yes I'm doing just that right now tehe. Except two things, this isnt a conversation so it cant like not go anyway (excuse all my like puncutaion etc btw) and secondly, I talk the weather cos i like it tehe. I love warm windy days, pounding rain on the rooftop days, and then those days when the sun is just peeking through the clouds, wanting to surprise you with it's wonderful warmth, but afraid of all the grey, angry clouds surrounding it :D Yes the weather of autumn (or fall for most of yous :p). Bliss. Even when the leaves die, I get excited! And that sounded weird but i dont care atm.
hmm tired will fin this tomorrow or saturday :)
So I'm back and its Saturday by the way :) Had such a busy day. Last night I recieved a phonecall from my boss asking me to work this morning. So i was up at 6 and when I finished, I then went to do some fundraising by stacking wood for a local farmer. There was soo much! ah well it's all for a good cause! :)
Now where was I? Ah yes, so am still loving the weather we're having at the mo.Its soo warm and here we call it like an Indian summer, cos its supposed to get soo much cooler, but surprisingly its still rather warm :)
Right im just gonna write 5 things to be thankful for (Ashley you've inspired me by your Thankful thursdays )
So heres mine
1. This is gonna sound kinda lame, but Im thankful for the internet. It's how I keeps in touch with friends, meet new people and fellowship with other believers :)
2. I'm thankful for my family. I mean sure they get on my nerves on more than one occasion, but heck they've always been there for me and well I know they're never let me down. I really ought to show them more, how much i appreciate their patience especially, with me.
3. I'm thankful for where I live. I mean its a new country. It doesnt have like dangerous predetors and heck spiders here are like harmless (except for the white-bait ;) (inside joke btw) spider) but aside from that, New Zealand is a beautiful and pretty safe country. Thankyou Lord!
4.I'm thankful for food. Its great! lol
5.Oh heck my friends! I'm indeed thankful for their loving natures, and their caring souls. I can say the stupedest thing and it doesnt matter. They get me (most of the time haha)I just wish my close ones, lived closer to me (lol bad er grammer), cos i dont get to see them much-hense me living internet lol.
well thats my list. heck ive been slack lately eh
hope all is well people!
till next time, sorry for annoying yous with my bad spelling and punctuation!
God bless
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
End of feb
Hey bloggers!
I want sure what to call this post and well that's all that i could come up with- its is 1am btw. THis times actually isnt too bad for me but still i should break that habit of staying up late haha am such a night owl!
Youth
Okay so youth group is finally up and running. It's really good this year, which is probabley too soon to say seeing as we've only had one meetin so far, but I mean like the organising is just excellent. I have been chosen as leader...haha thats sounds like some kind of dictatoshhip or something, that sentence, don't you think?? What I mean is, I and another old classmate have been chose as like youth leaders of the group, mainly because we've both just finished school and arnt moving on to Uni or anything this year. SO yeah its been real good, because we've been having like "leader" meetings lol and we've mangaed to plan like 3 weeks ahead of time, its great! To be honest I am finding it rather hard, cos Im not really a loud person, or am I like leader material (atleast thats what i think, ive been told by God and lots of other people, well otherwise) and yeah. Cos like at our first youth group meeting we were trying to organise games and well no-one was listening, there was just no respect..I found it quite idk offending. You know, like this generation is soo bad with respect, its horrific! So yeah this is a learning experiance for me, which I hope will bring the "leader-ness" (lol) right outta me. I would appreciate prayer btw :)
Engagement
Hahaha no Im not engaged! lol I just put that title to remind me of the engagement party I went to in the weekend. It was actually last years youth group leaders that became engaged! It was very lovely...but unfortunately alot of things went down. Im not going to go hugely into detail (that wouldnt be fair) but it would be safe to say that I learnt personally from attending this. You see Im completely opposed to drinking (as in alcohol) as I've seen the effects first hand and I know what it can lead too etc. But unfortunately on this night i drank. Thank the Lord it was only a few, but the guilt i felt afterwards was pretty big. I guess I just saw that everyone else (Christian and non Christian) were having a few and so I caved. Grr im really annoyed at myself, not only cos i lowered my standards (atleast I think thats what my standards are..heck im annoyed Im so "double-minded" on the matter also) but i also did this in front of minors who attend youth group. I mean heck, what is that showing them! Ughhh ...
Could you girls please pray for me?? or even leave me some advice? I really would appreciate it!
well think ill leave it at that for now.
I want sure what to call this post and well that's all that i could come up with- its is 1am btw. THis times actually isnt too bad for me but still i should break that habit of staying up late haha am such a night owl!
Youth
Okay so youth group is finally up and running. It's really good this year, which is probabley too soon to say seeing as we've only had one meetin so far, but I mean like the organising is just excellent. I have been chosen as leader...haha thats sounds like some kind of dictatoshhip or something, that sentence, don't you think?? What I mean is, I and another old classmate have been chose as like youth leaders of the group, mainly because we've both just finished school and arnt moving on to Uni or anything this year. SO yeah its been real good, because we've been having like "leader" meetings lol and we've mangaed to plan like 3 weeks ahead of time, its great! To be honest I am finding it rather hard, cos Im not really a loud person, or am I like leader material (atleast thats what i think, ive been told by God and lots of other people, well otherwise) and yeah. Cos like at our first youth group meeting we were trying to organise games and well no-one was listening, there was just no respect..I found it quite idk offending. You know, like this generation is soo bad with respect, its horrific! So yeah this is a learning experiance for me, which I hope will bring the "leader-ness" (lol) right outta me. I would appreciate prayer btw :)
Engagement
Hahaha no Im not engaged! lol I just put that title to remind me of the engagement party I went to in the weekend. It was actually last years youth group leaders that became engaged! It was very lovely...but unfortunately alot of things went down. Im not going to go hugely into detail (that wouldnt be fair) but it would be safe to say that I learnt personally from attending this. You see Im completely opposed to drinking (as in alcohol) as I've seen the effects first hand and I know what it can lead too etc. But unfortunately on this night i drank. Thank the Lord it was only a few, but the guilt i felt afterwards was pretty big. I guess I just saw that everyone else (Christian and non Christian) were having a few and so I caved. Grr im really annoyed at myself, not only cos i lowered my standards (atleast I think thats what my standards are..heck im annoyed Im so "double-minded" on the matter also) but i also did this in front of minors who attend youth group. I mean heck, what is that showing them! Ughhh ...
Could you girls please pray for me?? or even leave me some advice? I really would appreciate it!
well think ill leave it at that for now.
Saturday, February 6, 2010
update lol
Hey everyone! how are you all? So I made it my priority to update this as I just havnt in ages! It's really bad of me..i guess i just have been either too busy or too lazy to go on this...Im thinking more latter but a bit of both. Well today and my family went on a day trip to Alexander. It's a lovely little town that goes to extremes temperature wise, in both summer and winter. And so because its summer here i def expected the heat. And boy did we get it.. Was like 33 degrees! Which is alot especially for us, as lately our weather in my town has been pretty pitiful. Ah well! I enjoyed the heat today, it meant ice cream and touching up on my tan :D There was also another form of heat that wasnt so tasteful should i say..my temper. Today was definately another wake-up call for my erm character. Lately Gods showing me some ugly sides of me and it hasnt been pleasant. Today was def one of those days, when I could really see that I'm not perfect..well obvs not..but yeah. You see I can be very selfish, demanding, and impatient. Today i'm pretty sure I did nothing but complain and grumble about how we're wasting time doing this, and we're late for this..etc etc. Ughh i just hate that about myself! Funny thing is however (and btw Im not judging, just merely commenting) is that my dad and my youngest brother are exactly the same (Oh God have mercy, send us an outpouring Lord! Please!!) So today was a great day of butting heads-yay! I really do need a change in me, believe me i see the log in my own eye! I mean how am i supposed to cope in our family ministry if i cannot bear to be around them..i dont like being like this. I wish i was more like my brother James sometimes. He's got a gentle spirit, and just sits and smiles all the time. Sigh!
So yes atm things have been pretty difficult. Another thing is that I've been real keen to just go places, (mayby my age has something to do with it also..) like travel and well get out of town ya know! And i've been real struggling with the truths of this ministry and the fact we'll be all over the place, almost every country in the world...but for some mad reason, my heart has idk..taken it in, and Im still yearning to get out, even though i know right now, this is the "sitting in the waiting room" place...yeesh there goes my inpatient-ness again huh? Like its been hard aye. I'm thinking it certainly doesnt help when friends of mine who are not understanding of this at all....how do i say...It's like I have this huge dream of my life and its big and exciting..but i cannot really share it cos people dont believe you, or they imagine it their own way..and it sucks!
God has big plans! We are living in the last days, expect to see ginormous things happen people! We arnt just gonna be raptured without leaving a mark on this world. As barlow girl says "We are a million voices, breaking silence til...THEY'LL REMEMBER WE WERE HERE!!" Guys whats happening now, is just a period of darkness. Dont lose hope..i really ought to take my own advise hahaha! can you guys pray for me please..thanks! And so people even if this is a real weird blog, (i kinda start off slighly emo-ish and then end up leaving like a pep talk lol) just yeah keep at it. If theres things in your life getting you down, pray hard! And please i urge you to pray for the biggest revival the world has ever seen. Check out Isaiah60 and Acts 2!. Gods word does not return void! believe in the latter glory!! peace out.
So yes atm things have been pretty difficult. Another thing is that I've been real keen to just go places, (mayby my age has something to do with it also..) like travel and well get out of town ya know! And i've been real struggling with the truths of this ministry and the fact we'll be all over the place, almost every country in the world...but for some mad reason, my heart has idk..taken it in, and Im still yearning to get out, even though i know right now, this is the "sitting in the waiting room" place...yeesh there goes my inpatient-ness again huh? Like its been hard aye. I'm thinking it certainly doesnt help when friends of mine who are not understanding of this at all....how do i say...It's like I have this huge dream of my life and its big and exciting..but i cannot really share it cos people dont believe you, or they imagine it their own way..and it sucks!
God has big plans! We are living in the last days, expect to see ginormous things happen people! We arnt just gonna be raptured without leaving a mark on this world. As barlow girl says "We are a million voices, breaking silence til...THEY'LL REMEMBER WE WERE HERE!!" Guys whats happening now, is just a period of darkness. Dont lose hope..i really ought to take my own advise hahaha! can you guys pray for me please..thanks! And so people even if this is a real weird blog, (i kinda start off slighly emo-ish and then end up leaving like a pep talk lol) just yeah keep at it. If theres things in your life getting you down, pray hard! And please i urge you to pray for the biggest revival the world has ever seen. Check out Isaiah60 and Acts 2!. Gods word does not return void! believe in the latter glory!! peace out.
Monday, January 18, 2010
Interesting times
Hey everyone! How has the new year been treating you? I for one cannot beleive how fast it's going already, I mean it's almost February...which means Valentines Day :)...which also means hanging with my girlies.
Moving onto more pressing matters, I have titled this blog "Interesting Times" because for me, lately has been rather interesting, if not discouraging, crazy, fun, stressful all at the same time. I think it is definately a heart issue. Well actually I'm not entirelly sure anymore. You see over this past (2009 til late) year, my walk with God has never been so like horrid. I mean I havnt gone completely off the rails, I'm not like out selling drugs or anything like that, but I may as well be. You see the pressures in my society to party has been taking it's toll on me, and whole I'm proud to say I still have not been to a party (and still plan on continuing not to conform to that lifestyle), I have been severely tempted to just do it. Which would mean going against everything I believe in, rebelling against my parents, hurting myself and leaving a bad example for those who know me, but most of all it'll hurt Jesus. And thats what really scares me the most..or atleast thats what I'm hoping. You see at this present state i dont even know if I love Him anymore, if i truelly deeply want to seek Him and His will, ya know. ggrrrrrrrrrrr! It's so depressing! and yet through this He's showing how much He loves me, still. LIke even after all the negativity, after the constant modd swings and the never-ending selfish desires, He still loves me. This breaks my heart. I just want to want Him more...
Funny thing is after spending a week at my dear friend Mels house, I've learned so many of us young people are going through this. We have come to this place where we're feeling soo lost and so discouraged. Our fleshly desires are building up, causing rebellion in the homes, and leaving us hurt and broken. I actually cannot beleive how many of us (including myself) are just so like "anti parents" right now. It's unbeleivable.* We want God but arnt doing anything about it. We want to serve others, but arnt sure how. We are aching (cant spell that word) for answers, but arnt willing to look for them at the same time. All this confusion leaves us empty and doubtful.
And amazingly enough today I was reading my Word when I opened to Isaiah 60. Now this chapter is big in my home btw. My mother has been getting this for seven years (which is why we're in desperate hope for a worldwide revival btw)and so I've been reading this alot especially lately. But today verse 2 of the chapter stuck out like red on white. It reads
'For behold, the darkness shall
cover the earth,
And deep darkness the people;
This is whats going on people!! and I just couldnt see it until today! I mean talk about amaaazing! It just makes so much sense. This is why the church is suffering, this is why the young people are simply losing it. We have been faced with the darkness, and I feel God saying to endure. We need to hold on, and do our best to overcome this until this period of 'doubt' passes. I do apologise if this makes no sense to some of you. You peeps are mainly in America and mayby spiritually you're all doing great. But in my country there's devision, and there isn't unity. The churches that do exist have become dry and lukewarm, if you will, and God has plans of an outpouring I know it, i've just gotta get that vision back for myself. Still cant understand how my mother is still so strong..sorry this very muddled.
And also sorry cos I'm gonna stop short. It is midnight after all and well I just cant seem to write proper blogs I feel, they're never like put in proper, heck cant think of the word, like formatting? I keep going off on tangants.sigh.
Keeps strong, and please pray for me :)
God bles yall.
ps there'll was so much i wanted to talk about but i keep.. yeah.
Moving onto more pressing matters, I have titled this blog "Interesting Times" because for me, lately has been rather interesting, if not discouraging, crazy, fun, stressful all at the same time. I think it is definately a heart issue. Well actually I'm not entirelly sure anymore. You see over this past (2009 til late) year, my walk with God has never been so like horrid. I mean I havnt gone completely off the rails, I'm not like out selling drugs or anything like that, but I may as well be. You see the pressures in my society to party has been taking it's toll on me, and whole I'm proud to say I still have not been to a party (and still plan on continuing not to conform to that lifestyle), I have been severely tempted to just do it. Which would mean going against everything I believe in, rebelling against my parents, hurting myself and leaving a bad example for those who know me, but most of all it'll hurt Jesus. And thats what really scares me the most..or atleast thats what I'm hoping. You see at this present state i dont even know if I love Him anymore, if i truelly deeply want to seek Him and His will, ya know. ggrrrrrrrrrrr! It's so depressing! and yet through this He's showing how much He loves me, still. LIke even after all the negativity, after the constant modd swings and the never-ending selfish desires, He still loves me. This breaks my heart. I just want to want Him more...
Funny thing is after spending a week at my dear friend Mels house, I've learned so many of us young people are going through this. We have come to this place where we're feeling soo lost and so discouraged. Our fleshly desires are building up, causing rebellion in the homes, and leaving us hurt and broken. I actually cannot beleive how many of us (including myself) are just so like "anti parents" right now. It's unbeleivable.* We want God but arnt doing anything about it. We want to serve others, but arnt sure how. We are aching (cant spell that word) for answers, but arnt willing to look for them at the same time. All this confusion leaves us empty and doubtful.
And amazingly enough today I was reading my Word when I opened to Isaiah 60. Now this chapter is big in my home btw. My mother has been getting this for seven years (which is why we're in desperate hope for a worldwide revival btw)and so I've been reading this alot especially lately. But today verse 2 of the chapter stuck out like red on white. It reads
'For behold, the darkness shall
cover the earth,
And deep darkness the people;
This is whats going on people!! and I just couldnt see it until today! I mean talk about amaaazing! It just makes so much sense. This is why the church is suffering, this is why the young people are simply losing it. We have been faced with the darkness, and I feel God saying to endure. We need to hold on, and do our best to overcome this until this period of 'doubt' passes. I do apologise if this makes no sense to some of you. You peeps are mainly in America and mayby spiritually you're all doing great. But in my country there's devision, and there isn't unity. The churches that do exist have become dry and lukewarm, if you will, and God has plans of an outpouring I know it, i've just gotta get that vision back for myself. Still cant understand how my mother is still so strong..sorry this very muddled.
And also sorry cos I'm gonna stop short. It is midnight after all and well I just cant seem to write proper blogs I feel, they're never like put in proper, heck cant think of the word, like formatting? I keep going off on tangants.sigh.
Keeps strong, and please pray for me :)
God bles yall.
ps there'll was so much i wanted to talk about but i keep.. yeah.
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